31 March 2006
Is 2am in the morning, m mugging since 1pm till now, non-stop. Really worx... even watching Da Chang Jin just now also mugging. Hmm, first time so hardworking. Haha, think I scared le bahs. Alright... so why m I here? Cuz I couldn't get to sleep. Why? Cuz... m worried sick for tomorrow's paper, or rather, the final exam paper at 0830hours. Hmm... wondering will I be able to wake up at 4.30am later to mug again, m left with a few more sets of revision paper to redo. Hmm... basically careless mistake damn lots, later shall make an efforts to check, and recheck and counter check before leaving the examination hall. And yah, is at the functional hall not indoor sports hall, hopefully I won't go to the wrong venue. I think this time I could do better as more wishes received from YY, Jo's, Xiao Yi Mummy, Siew Ting, Hau's.
M happier than 2hours ago...
Yes m calling for an end for all the exam. =) Time to work, let's see what job I can find for my friends as well. Alright, today's paper was structured with 3 sections, Part I - Theory question on taxable, non-taxable 9 marks. Foreign income 3marks, Types of form to obtain 4marks, Offence committed, 9marks. Part II - Compuatation of empolyment income 35marks, Part III - Computation of seperate assessment - 45marks. Is darn scoring, hopefully I didn't commit any silly mistakes...
Alright, I shall not predict my results at this moment. M tired, gonna nap afterwhich 'd be tidying up my shelve, throwing away unwanted stuffs n hopefully it'd be in apple-pie order till the brand new semester. S m lazy to tidy up again. Washing my school bag n stuffs. N shall go for a jog this evening if m in e mood to. N as usu shall catch Da Chang Jin at 10pm n shall play my sims game till morning den sleep. Doubt gurls wanna hang out tonight...
Oh yah, the mushroom head (Discipline mistress) still recognise me. Heh2, I was signing up for CIP for year 2, and she was there looking at me and said: "This is a worth CIP you should go and cannot play play" Get what she means? She mean that this is more important than the IRAS trip which I choose to go out with gurls to creative, yes yes, is that day n whn my poor kakis is starving while m having pizza @ JP with em. Heh2... oh well... she still remembered that I didn't went to see her when m told to do so. =) Mr Cheo, who said that I couldn't escape from her? She's darn nice to me lah... proud! Happy Birthday my beloved brother.
I hope I'll luv myself more
02:05
30 March 2006
Alright is a promise to blog an entry for Jo's. I shall not says that you'll never understand, cuz I know is hurtful enough to hurt someone who cares for me. So I shall says that I'm a person who's more to perfectionist. I hate things to be done regretfully. I understand myself more than anyone else, I'm diligent and capable in doing well in everything is just a matter of willingness, I hope you understand yah? So I was regretting why didn't I start my revision earlier on? If I've done so, I doubt those questions came out yesterday would be too much a problem for me. As I said, it's easier than those revision papers we've done. But why regret when I choose to left my heart some where else? I'm not blaming anything but just hate myself for not putting all my efforts when I knew the adjustments weren't that simple as I've done but why can't I be bother to check? Is not a pass that I'm aiming for, is not a grade E,D,C,B I'm going for. It's not just an A I'm aiming to achieve, but is a 100 that I'm going for. Or at least, something which is more realistic, I should be achieving a higher mark based on my previous performances. Oh well, I'm not feeling sad or anything, I'm just kinda disappointed, would be fine once a brand new semester starts. Thanks for your concern anyway.
Wonder was it too much worries that causes me to lost my appetite. Or was it because m running fever and flu?
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:00
29 March 2006
`Mugging as much as I can_ Yes m early this morning, wanna mug as much as I can. Later in the late afternoon is accounting paper which is the paper which I worried the most. I hope, all I've learnt will not be forgotten just because of e anxious moments, is definitely not worth. Just realized this "ai mei rang ren shou jing wei qu, zhao bu dao xiang ai de zheng qing, he shi gai qian jing, he shi gai fang qi, lian yong bao dou mei you yong qi,ai mei rang ren bian de tan xin, zhi dao deng tai shi qu yi li,ying hui wo he ni, xie bu chu jie qu, ran yi han de mei li ting zai zhe li" from yang cheng ling de ai mei.
`Is drawing nearer_
Alright I've finish revised final adjustment and disposal, I really hope both of this would come out in the exam, don't waste my efforts mah... heh2. Hmm... haven't really look through Non-trading... most likely will be coming out too, oh well... just hope I do it steadily and moderately bahs... stock valuation you're my saver, please come out. Hopefully I could secure an A pls... dying for As... =D cuz I haven't start my revision for taxation at all... so aiming for B for tax... jia u le... time for shower and prepare... =)
`M an idiot_
I did badly for my paper today, oh well final adjustment, non-trading, COE, stock valuation came out as predicted. Afterall, was a pretty easy paper is just that m lazy to spot for the mistakes that I've made. Pretty nice of Mr Cheo to sms us: "Hi all, wishing you success in conquering your paper tomorrow! Remember to do all questions!" and he given a couple of us a call... checking how we were doing... oh well... I stated all the facts... the structure is slightly a lil' different but wasn't tough as those questions that we did for revision.
I'm full-prepared to get a C...m sorries to 'cher... m moodless for anything except mugging hard for taxation.
My new class would be QS... with all those OS students... but none of them is close to me. Luckily I still 've my kakis... plenties of thoughts during the journey back home.
I hope I'll luv myself more
08:01
28 March 2006
`M sorries_
Girl m sorries... n guy m not sure what's came across your mind that you wanna be into business. But since you've got this thought in mind then don't think yourself that you're dreaming. Get it planned out and do something about it m sure you gonna succeed.
M being frank, I can't hang on any more... m getting sick n tired of exam period. I'm pressurized with stress, m racing against time. I need some time for revision, jogging, gyming, practicing cello, reading books before turning in. I need this kind of life style, hais. Why there must be so much hatred in my life?
`Eating is just a waste of time_
Went out to mug with CH, nothing much that I've done just solving her doubts, oh well sacrified my revision time, hais... but I can't possible to be selfish right? In the evening she was suggesting to eat KFC, but the Q was so darn long that even she also find it a waste of time to Q up just for the food. In the end she bought 2 c.puffs n I went back home to eat cup noodles. At least it saved up lots of time for revision.
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:47
27 March 2006
`Damaged brain_
Was drizzling outside this morning m thinkin of u, thinkin bout r u covered well w blanket. Yes m wonderin dat did u realli noe dat girl would be sufferin if guys r evils? Is a doubt... =) Wishes from you and 'em is different, how different? I do not know how to differential. Both are equally important to me. The sms was saying: "Unable to wish you good night face-to-face, the oni wae is to sent a sms wishing you having a sweet dream."... ... ...
I thought I m in a mood to blog 'bout all these, but i doubt.
Alright, so today's BCM paper was pretty easy =) Perhaps... that's the outcome of receiving wishes from friends =) thanks to mummi xiao yi, jj, yy n 'fred.
M feeling envious of mic, she gotten her adidas jacket. Was her boyfriend who gotten her that. Hmm, some how a kind of relief... is not the design that I m dead set on. Hais... lil' bern blog song was pretty sad... hais
M goin mug... as if... m goin nap, tired.
For typing the above, I spent 46mins? Hell, as I was typing and deleting [repeated] damaged brain.
`5hours of nap has shows that how tiring I'm_
I've never been like this, taking nap for so long, hais. Terrible. Hm, gonna mug non-stop till 10pm for my show. After which, I just hope I'd get back to sleep.
Oh yah, for the first time that I'm gonna sae, my face is darn sensitive this time round, thanks for ST remindin me. Please be cured soon, otherwise I won't be able to sleep well. Hais
Went to her blog and discovered that she wrote this for me: "Realli scare me sia.. woke up @ 6am wanna wake jialin sleepin princess up.. den she nv on hp. was thinking wanna risk callin her hm ant. decided to gif it a try. i rather to get scolding frm her parents, i oso no wanna get scolded by her for nt wakin her up on time. ooppsss.. haha.. "
Oh well, is seems like I'm always known as some sleeping xxxxxx. Hau's wrote a card for me during CNY was ending the closing with "Happy New Year, sleeping beauty" and here another one saying that I'm a sleeping princess. And I was once xxx piglet... haha. Oh well, I'm sleeping freak! Muhahaha... oh well just wonder have I scolded you before for not waking me up on time?
I hope I'll luv myself more
12:01
26 March 2006
`Won't be forgetting you_
M still slacking over here. Oh well, nothing much actually. I wanted to say... each time I've been telling em [sis n bro] that exam's just right tomorrow, just none that wishes me "all e best". I terrible needed that, as m afraid that exam paper would came out something that I do not know.
Time to mug for BCM... all e best to me.
It's pretty idiot for me to said tha "Mens are not evils are not loved by girls" hell...
Anyway... I've put away all the past, m living good right now. You've your own goal, that's pretty good, work hard and achieve it. Even if there's one day you gonna forgets me when you succeed, it's all fine with me. As I know, I won't forget you no matter what. M not asking for anything from you ani more. Not even all those promises...
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:35
Went over to sis house @ 9am to babysit lil' niece till evening around 7pm when she's back home. Mugging @ her house ain't as good as muggin at home, it's not as peacefully as I thought. Thinking I'm gettin a hand of non-trading but darn careless, careless mistakes damn lots! Exam can't afford to lose all these careless marks lah... humpf ;(
Alright, back home accompanied mom to buy dinner, wasted my precious hour. Oh well, is worth... beside is rare that she's in the mood to leave home. Went to get my notes photocopied too =)
Conversation when we're on our way:
Mom: What do you like to 've?
Me: Nothing, m full
Mom: I thought you said you haven't had your dinner when you're at sis house?
Me: [Nodded]
Mom: Then you should 've something, otherwise, your gastric gonnas be in great pain again
Me: [Smiled back]
Mom: [Furious look]
Still m not having anything... =) Sandwiches will do for supper...
M damn angry with the taxi driver, think he's blind. He was looking down when driving? Hell, nearly knocked down on us! Idiot...
Sigh... I'm old, sensile... forgotten to get my lecture pad...
Gonna mug...
Helped mom to save up a pretty this evening. She was wanting to buy new clothes for lil' niece but I stopped her. She was wanting to buy milo packet drinks for brother, but I stopped. She was wanting to buy orange juice for me, and yes... I stopped her again. Oh well, she's paying everything at home, including the 1meal that we have for evening. Sigh... utilities bills, groceries etc... all by her alone. She doesn't know how much it hurts me...
Moody but pretty alright at least... she still remember that m always having gastric pain. It seems like my holiday work can only be spent on handphone bills and internet bills I wanna help my mom's out even just one day that I'd afford.
I just got to know that elder brother fell off from bike @ M'sia... another good-for-nothing. All knew about it, except mom. Don't wanna her to get worried sick... if she knew about it, she'd even faint. HAIX...
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:57
25 March 2006
Alright, I've been mugging for hours... and yes I mean it, hours... non-stop. Can't even bother to have my dinner, it took away my half an hour, idiot! I didn't wanna had my dinner actually but sister asked if mom and I would like to go for a shop. Oh no, though really wanted to go so much, but seeing all those left over revision papers, I've got to make myself stay at home n mug n mug non-stop lah. So end up, mom's dinner was left for me to finish up, darn it! Yes, she gotten me a new fitted sheet set, hais... non again?
Alright, I hope you've said what you wanna said by making the effort to call. I'm glad... you called. M going out to mug...
Take care everyone and online time will be lesser... hais
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:12
The bottom line: Think about creating a fresh environment and satisfy your urge to redecorate.
In details: You've got a lot to do and very little time to get it done. Fortunately, if anyone can manage it, it's you, mostly because you're used to this type of thing -- the pressure, that is. Better get an early start, though, and plan on being up late. You won't be able to rest until it's all done, and you know how you get when you decide you're going to finish something.
How true it's...
What m I doing in the mid of the nite especially I've a +dditional class at 8.30am and has to leave home at 7am? Insonmia? Moodless to do my revision.
Guess it has been long enough that i've been waiting, and I shall forgets all the past and rebuild the f'ship. Afterall, I know is uncomparable...
Should get a new environment, at least it won't reminds me of any.
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:22
24 March 2006
Is Friday, exam is drawing nearer and nearer, just 2more days to go. Worried sick.
I just discovered that cello could even accumulate dusts when it's protected by the cello bag. And yes, is darn dusty. I had also discovered that my cello was in tune and yes... I just miss playing it. =)
Argh... madness with accounting, non-trading. Sucks... uncertain of how to do the adjustment using T A/C or the formulae of [Bank+Accured-Prepaid] also not safe, what a hell shit! M in total madness... m falling sick right after exam.. I'd predict that... sigh
Watched Da Chang Jin, I realised that nothing is impossible through hard works.
I'm worried sick still, sometime I thought I'd do non-trading, but I think in the real fact, I don't even understand. Sometimes, it requires so many a/cs to be opened up, sometimes it don't requires any. Where exactly should I start? Sigh... IAC is just Wednesday, do I still have time to practice non-trading? Think, final adjustment is my only saver, no matter what... if it can't balance, I still 've to find a way out to find where it has went wrong. Some how, I've forgotten how to compute the depreciation, ooo... that's pretty sad. It's important. General Journal, I just hope by luck, I'd understand all the transaction, which was the correct entries etc... hais... stock valuation, hopefully a simple one comes out... I see no reason that I'd fail my accounting.
Sigh, it's not just a pass that I'm aiming for... is a grade A
Monday gonna be my BCM exam, worried sick too. Hopefully I'd just get all the format correct, at least I'm secured to pass. Again not just a pass that I want, at least a B?
Taxation had not yet started my revision, starting tomorrow with all the theories... after BCM paper should be focusing on taxation more than accounting though is the last paper. Hais... moodless...
Tomorrow going for the additional accounting class, hopefully I'd understand non-trading please, yes... i'm begging...
Holiday drawing nearer too, wanna find a day time job, though pay is low, but for the sake of Da Chang Jin, I think is worth. =) Nighty
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:16
23 March 2006
First n foremost, Happy Birthday my beloved sister. Smuackiex
Was a nice morning to sleep, but still I forced myself to get out of bed and get prepared for school. N m back home from school for 2hours of accounting lessons. Get to know that there 'll be extra accounting lesson this Saturday, that's great! Looking forward. M stupid enough, I should have went to get back my additional bcm practice paper before heading back home. Sigh... didn't know how badly I've done this time round, argh... maybe m going to school tomorrow, silly? Oh well, 've got to go... meeting Kel for gym now and Gina for self study in the evening, m packed the whole day. Tata...
Da Chang Jin indeed a nice show, although sometimes I'll still mix up with all the Ladies. Alright, the whole evening has been pretty tiring for me. Just discovered that I've got no time for reading those books that I had just borrowed a few days ago. Darn it, shall re-borrow it again when the due date is up. =) Tomorrow Jo's coming over for a play, I mean she's going to play some exercise pieces for me, that's darn good. And of course, I truly miss my bow, and perhaps tomorrow I'd be playing cello once more. Anyway, was a silly decision to give up on cello lah, it'd be nice to play once in a blue moon. =] I've got to mug again...
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:31
22 March 2006
`Looking forward to holidae_
As usu gurls were all self-declaring off dae. Aniwae,tomorrow 'll be the last dae of revision period. Alrighty, hopefully I'd clear all my doubts before the exam. Been slacking since wake up, guess time to mug @ 2pm =)
Holidae comin soon, gonna find a part-time job work n work earn as much as I can. Salary gonna be used for
1) Semester fees
2) Assignment books
3) Handphone bills [Darn it, don't 've $ to pay for this month handphone bill, so it's gonna be accumulated with the next month one, sigh.]
4) Internet bill
5) New hair cut
6) 1/4 of the left over money 'll be given to mom's.
7) New handphone, if possible... I don't wanna trade in
8) New slim personal digital camera
9) 1shirt,1skirt/jean,1handbag,1pair of new shoe,1new watch [think can save it up this, cuz is rare that I wear watch dat's why m always late].
`Mugging hard_
Received her sms asking me out for self study at the reopened library next to JP. So yes been mugging from 4-7.30pm. 2.5hours allows me to do only one taxation question and adjustments of non-trading organization. Ooo, was asking and clearing doubts. =) It was so darn nice of Gina for bringing me the multi-column pad to JP for me. Just that =D Hmm, went with her to the library again and yes, all the books are attracting my attention. Borrowed 4books, hopefully I'd have the time to finish reading it all up within 2weeks... or earlier.
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:27
21 March 2006
`Freaking worn out_
Yesterday was freaking hell tiring, 've been in school from 8am to 7pm for lesson and remedial class. He was nice enough to come back conduct a remedial class for us but just so darn it of them to play a fool of him. So end up, only my friend and I went. Well, is even better =) Later gonna 've my IAC mock test, just 've an idea of how to prepare non-trading after the extra lesson last evening. Hmm, everyone gonna wish me good luck, aren't you? Not expecting any As for mock, but at least scoring something like a 75?
So guy, you were looking for me last night? m sorries for not answering the call, as I was soundly asleep, dui bu qi
`Mock test_
The mock test was pretty alright, at least I've tried all the questions including non-trading. Well, bad enough to say how badly I've done, but I'm contended. Hopefully I'd be more hardworking on non-trading, less careless mistakes on final adjustment and correction of error, and more practice of disposal it's still possible to achieve an A unless they moderate the grade. =)
`Some idiot_
I don't see the needs for you to give a tight slap on her face, she's just a toddler that requires your patience n precious tym to teach and guide her when she has done something wrong. `Mug mug mug_
Has been doing revision since 5pm till 10pm... take an hour of break to watch Da Chang Jin, a nice show. =D Hm, 11pm was playing and chatting with second brother. Hm, he said I'm fat and I asked him for waes to lose 2kgs in one week. He said, veggie for breakfast, apple for lunch, water for dinner? Dots... if it gonna work without causing me gastric, giddy... i'd give it a try... is worth afterall.
Still rmb wad kakis Hau has said. She said that ones constantly burp-ing non-stop is due to too much wind inside the stomach, is it true? Brother say so too... ooo... gosh. I'm burping every hour, every minute... think all kakis are used to it. Haha... they'd find it weird w/o my burp-ing in class, even I just had plain water in the morning righty?
M tired, tomorrow meeting G'na to take my multi-column pad, not enough for revision.
M fat, m I really too busy for a jog? Think is an excuse that can't be excused. Shall go for a jog tomorrow evening... =)
Nighty...
I hope I'll luv myself more
06:14
20 March 2006
Tried to rest early but I just can't. I didn't know what's the hell I'm thinking of, kinda missing someone e-mails. Wonder are all my mails for you still in your inbox? Yours is still here. Hoping u're feeling better from your sickness.
Is 2am and I'm browsing for some new blogskins for another blog of mine. And yes I'm miss Sims expansion pack, done a research, they're as follows:
Sims university - Cheat on studies?
Sims nightlife - Going to pub, pretty nice if I'm single
Open for business - Empoly and retrench?
Holiday edition - Throw all sorts of parties...
Family fun stuffs - In store on 13 Apr [Clothing are pretty attractive]
Yes I wanted to 've em all just like I've got the full expansion pack of sims 1. But this time round, guess it's gonna cost me pretty much if I'm gonna get all the 4 expansion packs. And for heaven sake, there's no end to it. It might even have sims 3... so perhaps... I'm getting one of it, just one using my holiday work salary... anyone has got any recommendation of which to buy?
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:59
19 March 2006
`=D_
Received good friend, Agnes sms saying that she's alone at Bugis asked if I'd like to join. Yes when I was about to go out, here she sent another sms saying that she's going back home. Oh I was like omg?
So it has been years that dad used to cook on Sunday? Although is a simple meal [Pan fried plain egg, stir fried dou ya, fried wu xiang, xian cai tang] but I really appreciated and enjoyed. Wu xiang, I doubt my mom know how to cook, that's the difference of dad's cooking and mom's cooking. It was a kinda wasted that dad didn't prepare my favourite dish.
Is pretty late now, I thought I'd play an hour of game, but I doubt is a good idea since I going out later in the evening. So better starts mugging.
You always brought back some sickness when you're away from Singapore. Thought you're out only you're feeling better but you're still out when you cough with bleeding? Oh well, I'm begging you to drink more water but not cold water lah guy! I'm in great madness with you... please please please take good care of yourself.
I thought you'd never been to my blog any more, hais... =) it was a Sunday noon surprise. You started off my day with a smile =D Kai xin...
Time to mug
Haven't been doing any revision from just now till now. Cuz... I've finished up all the revision paper? M I going to redo those questions again? Perhaps tonight... now I shall play my game before meeting girls for dinner. Oh yah, I was being said by mom that why didn't I look after my niece todae since I'm not working. Yes, is all my faults! Has she forgotten that I just told her last night that my exam is just next week? Madness. Jo, you rmb that guy who talked to me when I went to look up for my mom's? He asked my mom if he'd stay up at our house. Wahahaha... anyway... my mom's adopted him as god-son. Gosh another brother... =)
`Nothing much_
Tomorrow no matter how tired I'm, I must wake up and go to school on time. 5.30am die die 've to wake up and shower, prepare and go school. No more time to slack =) Tomorrow having xtra class think will be ending around 5.3o or 6pm, 'll be pretty tiring. Informed mom not to cook my dinner. Shall go for a jog.. this week was plain lazy for a jog... hais... make up 2days for this week. =D Nighty...
I hope I'll luv myself more
14:58
18 March 2006
Forced to blog the third entries of e dae
See what she has smsed me: "Jialin, you need to study tomorrow? Can help to take care of Pearlyn? 'Cuz my dad don't allow me to go church and stay at home to take care of her but I want to go church tomorrow".
I don't wanna say I've been nice to her all the times, but at least for the sake when she needs some accompaniment I'm there for her. But just where's she when I needs?
I m darn mad with her, darn disappointed. I've an urge to sms her dad what she has sent me. But at the same time, I don't wanna be such a betrayer. And I don't wanna her to be scolded over this kind of small thing. Yet I really feel like scolding her myself... I even feel so tempted to slap her on her face, to wake her up... is your CHURCH more important than my REVISION? Hell shit, afterall... she's half of your sister, gurl! And I feel like scolding her dad. Don't ever scold her for going out, cuz u've been selfish as you're seeing money too hard. My sympathy for her. If you're planning to be wealthy, then please don't plan to have children. Thanks you!!!!
Are online friends more caring than real life friends?
I'm sorries WL for putting my angers on you. I'll jia you de... thanks guy!
Thanks guy, thanks girls [YY and Jo]
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:15
`Whys?
I've been slacking since I came back home from celebration of her birthday all the way till 5pm when I get started off with bits of bits of revision. Revising my taxation till 8pm when I granted myself the permission to take a break of 2hours of sims game. [Don't wanna say anything more] Right back to the com... I'm thinking...
`I just wanna do as well as before, but why can't I?
`Am I expecting too much or
`am I demoralized
`Disheartened
`Discouraged
`I'm getting emotional
`I'm pressurized
`Nobody seems to care at home
I nearly cried when I'm trying to tell sis that I'm struggling with my modules and yes I told her I flunked my BCM... and she said, that's bad. And she went back home when she knows that my tears gonna drop. Yes it dropped when she left, yes I'm emotional and he saw, he didn't ask and left me alone. Playing his stuffs as usual.
For nothing, dad ends up in the police station. Oh well, has really been a donkey years. Anyway, I'm not gonna care. Is none of my business... as he said: "If you get yourself into deep trouble, don't ever come and tell me" when I was clubbing out with friend the other night. Thanks dad for saying these to me. As least I don't feel any worries for you.
After a cold shower, a self-reflection I've done. I don't wanna to be pessimistic nor optimistic. I just wanna be realistic. I wanna reset my target to something which I think I'd achieve base on the current situation:
BCM - B
IAC - B
Tax - B
GPA - 3.o
Ave GPA - 3.3
I've said, anything that falls below 3.5 is consider pretty bad enough. But I've got no other choice. Just hope I'll learn from this lesson and work xtremely hard for the final year
Spilting of class might not be a bad thing for me. I just hope, in the new environment, I'd have new lecturers, new classmates and a brand new me. I wanna get along well with everyone in a brand new semester, a wider social circle, looking at the bright side of haunting for a close and best friend.
For once, I consider myself to have a friend last year.
I'm going off to PM with Jo's later for my revision. Thankful to her, I think she's gonna be darn bored. Sorries gurl...
Demoralized - Anyone cares to treat me to pub? [m broke]
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:00
Moii sweetie Percie, Happy Birthday to you, smuackiex
Pretty early this morning, stomach kinda pain. Was looking for my round neck shirt, just where did it gone to?
Madness, pissed off
Have been doing taxation revision for hours, but no idea of the whole thing. Wanting to take a break of playing sims2 since it has been a donkey years that I last played. And yes... an hour of game is gone becuz of that gurl who hanged up my com!!! Fucking hell... is real madness and pissed off!!! If not because of ****** I'd have went down for a RUN.
Run away from this madness... !#%&*^$@ KNNBACCB
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:51
17 March 2006
I don't know what the main reason for being unable to sleep everynight. Was it because I sleep in the afternoon? Was it because I am worrying for something else? Was it because I am too stressful? Was it because I am suffering from insonmia? Or was it because I am ...
First time in my entire school life in ITE, I flunked Biz English. Sat for the mock BCM paper on Wednesday and gotten it back today. Guess how badly I had actually done? 45/100. Everything is the same as what I learnt in OS but I just didn't know where's the A I used to score went to.
I used to say this, but I hate to say this -> "Without fail, each lesson he'll [My BCM lecturer] definitely spoon feed us with all the answer saying that we've a very short time to cover everything. We've got no time to practice. But come on, as a lecturer I don't think's a good idea to spoon feed the students with answer. And he's not capable in asking the whole class to keep quiet and listen to his class. As day passes by, 8months... I've been copying all his answers until... the last 2weeks before exam. He gave us a mock test, without guidelines, without answer... I'm all clueless... and yes... I thought I know, but in the real fact, I don't. None of my group members scored an A. Who's going to help me?
45/100 I couldn't help thinking that he's against me, initially I went to staff lounge to look up for him. Thought I'm gonna scold him or something, but I didn't. As he said: "45/100, has shows that you haven't been coming for my class and Ms Phua will starts to suspect your attendance with this tremendous drop from your 3.6 gpa. I've got to ask Mdm Ju [My fav lecturer in OS who teach me Effective Writing] to take a good look of how "well" you've scored. Monday please come for my bcm @ 10am, otherwise is a must for you to come on Wed, I shall sit one paper with you alone.
A self reflection when I'm on my way back home from school. I think I've been an idiot. Having such kind of result yet pushing all the blames to others. Well, that's terrible. I shall not blame anyone but myself for being a failure as I couldn't even plan my time well. Even I do, I don't follow it. Why? What causes all these to happen? I do appreciate things that he done for me. Helping me as much as he could, even my attendance. Each time he said this -> "I'm very disappointed with you. Jialin, I don't want you to drop from your 3.68 GPA. You want to go poly aren't you? Really wakes me up from slacking.
Enough of all these. I think I shouldn't be saying too much right now, shall do lots of revision =)
I wanna thanks someone. She's so speacial to me... Kakis YY
I'm sorries for nagging at you when you don't even mark the paper. Dui bu qi, qing ni yue liang wo. Thanks you for what you've said, your encouragements I sensed all. You care, you worry, you helped me as much as you can. I know all that. Thanks for all your morning calls... I promise I will not go back to sleep any more. Please wake me up on time =) I own you a fabulous treat! I'll ask you out one day of the last week of Apr... please keep yourself free. Only you! Heh heh... I love you a lot, yes a lot! Spilt class? Stupid sickening mushroom head! Humpf! I think I couldn't bear to be apart with you and JJ. I don't wanna ask for more, I just hope the 3 of us won't be apart. But if all [Mic, CH, JJ, Doreen, You n Me] our results are good, please may god grant me that we shall not be seperated! I just miss all my time with you girls. No ones understand me other than the 5 of you. Always giving me in to me no matter how ridiculous I'm. Xie xie ni men... a thousands of love to my beloved kakis...
Yes he's right [Brother] saying that I paid for the sch fees, e exam fees yet don't cherish everything. Hais... gonna mug...
I hope I'll luv myself more
18:57
I'm darn duper sleepy right now yet I'm still on the phone with her. Yes, the conversation is on and off. There's this article I read from yesterday newspaper. There's this cellmate killed another and ate up his liver. He said: "He was about to eat his heart" to one of the officer who stepped in. 3 out of 6 officers has resigned from the post while the others are under stress.
Too tired to do anything, just wanna sleep
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:18
16 March 2006
Couldn't get to sleep, red eyes and having mild cold now. *Terrible. Wishing to go for a jog later in the evening, hopefully mom's back by that time. Otherwise, I'd 've to babysit that lil' princess myself. Realized that 2/7 sets of taxation revision papers were half completed. Was a theoretical and tedious elective that requires meticulous work. Hopefully I'd start off with tax revision soon
You said you hate running nose, food you ate just taste so bland on 180206.
Whew! Mom's back, lil' princess throwing tantrum, what a hell shit. Hmm, 3 additional tax revision papers, take my life with you Mrs Tan! Was asking Mr Hari for more revision paper for BCM and guess what he said? He said: "More more more, you don't even do. No lah, Jialin, just focus on the 2 sets of the papers that I've given. The format is all the same". Okies... precisely of what he said, the format is all the same. But it can't be possible to came out with the same question right? And yes... I don't touch any revision papers that he given to us, because is too far away from the revised questions format. Kk... I know I'm stupid, I'm fussy enough. Shall work back work, Oct 05, May 05, May 2002 then May 99. Oh dear, still have 4 more sets to do... hell... -.-" Going off to do all the revisions lers.. hais...
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:57
15 March 2006
... I can't
Do you still rmb the last month of today? You said it's a must to miss you and yes I'm. Away... recalled the time you been to Thai, you called before you were away but why you didn't say a single thing this time? Gosh... *tears showering moii heart - - - rolled down my cheeks
Late in the nite, I'm missin your "shoo"... e way you chased me off to sleep, is just so swt
I hope I'll luv myself more
03:00
`Some thoughts_
I knew I couldn't hide it from mom for too long, she has found out yet keeping quiet. Later in the afternoon she's going back to M'sia with elder brother. So I'm here figuring out what I should get for 'em for dinner. And what time should I babysit my lil' niece till. Oh well, I hope I can allow sis to work overtime, but I just afraid that I'd 've a tough time babysitting her mischievous daughter. And yes... my taxation revision papers are getting more and more. The worse thing, I've no answer for reference unlike BCM n IAC
I'm broke, thanks mummy for helping me out with the internet bill this month. Holiday shall work hard and repay her back. Think daddy was darn fark up with the NUH doctors, all the x-rays just couldn't figure out what's wrong with his health, hell shit!
Hopefully I'll wake up at 9am later and do at least a minute before my mock BCM exam.
For the BCM exam I just hope that enquiry letter, fax, notice of meeting cum agenda n minute come out. Report's pretty scoring if I get a hand of it... =) IAC wise, saw the improvements... both are doing fine except for taxation. When will I memorise the format of all the computation of various types of tax?
`I just realised_
Argh... I shouldn't log on to f'ster. And yes you're away from Singapore again. But why didn't say? Oh well... perhaps you tried to but... but.. I left the conversation first. But I... I did mention anything you'd just drop me an sms? And yes... I've been waiting..
O, stop all that...
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:31
14 March 2006
`I'm missed the morning classes A.G.A.I.N! _
I just couldn't imagine how lazy I'm getting. Girl overslept this morning but at least she still went for class, but I just went back to sleep. Am I aware that I'm left with less than 13days?
Can someone please kill me? I don't even know that there's BCM class today. Oh well, I desperately need my time table with me everywhere I go in school. Just couldn't remember where's my classroom, what lesson I'm having now... that's terrible lah... has been 8months that I'm in this school but...
I'm gonna make myself re-take the module if a GPA of as low as 3. In fact, nothing is good to me if the GPA falls below 3.5... [2As, 1B]... so try to achieve as high as possible...
Study smart, revise hard... jia u... =)
Is tough for her to realise that you still love her, you still miss her. Likewise, is also tough for you to know I miss you... BUT nevermind, I'm still learning to let go everything. =)
`Update_
Argh... went out with girls for lunch, drank a caramel @ mc cafe? Pretty nice, but afterall still prefer coffeebean, the ultimate. Nevermind.
So nice of kakis 'Hau... pass me all my homework, notes, questions and answer. Even lent me her copies... darn it. I shall not ask anything about school things if I don't go to school. Selfish. Haha... aniwae... she treated me that I'm sick and meet me up... ohhh... that's nasty of her... kidding. Thanks girls.. lurfes u al lots lots...
Hmm, just gotten back home not long ago. Just learnt how to use rice cooker to heat up cans food from mom. Heh heh... aniwae... mom's going to be away to m'sia tomorrow, gonna miss her. But just two days one night... hopefully i can just take good care of myself. Heex...
I just realised that I can't do my homework with the computer switched on, distractions. So going to show a great great art piece by baddixx...
That's about all.. tata...
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:10
13 March 2006
`Nothing much_
It seems like I've got nothing to blog for this evening. As usual, I missed the morning classes, half way done with revision, nothing more... I just feel that I'm fat
Oh well, I just hope I'd get over all these real soon. Going off for revision... tata
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:23
12 March 2006
`Enjoyed my weekends...
Mind was totally blank while doing tax this morning, 2hours just gone with an empty piece of paper. Totally 've got no idea how the format look like, no reference either as I was at my sis house babysitting my lil' niece.
Around 2pm, received sms from Kel... asking me to sms her when I'm ready. Hurhur... thought she's not going with me, but she's. Yep, hyper lah her... we've been inside from 3 to 6pm? She was like exercising non-stop, more enthu than me. Heh2, think I've found someone who's more crazy than me lers... went shower lalala... thn heading to the near by coffeeshop to have sugar cane, pioneer mall to 've my congee... is nice but too big a bowl for me to finish. Then giant to buy some stuffs and rabbit sweet for my lil' niece. Argh... sorries to make u cry this afternn [She jux wanna tag along, oh dear... she can't lah... unless i'm going shopping lol] Hmm, koufu to get my fries... kinda regretted... is fattening lah... lalala... I've finished up all... bleahx...
Is my first time feeling that I've enjoyed my weekends. Pretty good =)
Exercising plan has been carried out, but when will I really settle down and start my revision? Kk... right now... going to unpack my bag, change and wash up and shall get settle down as quick as possible. Tata... stupid entry...
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:37
11 March 2006
`Always be mistaken_
Just realised this misunderstanding that she has over me. Was my sms too harsh? Damn it I just forgotten what I've said in the sms. As my outbox was filled up with all the sms that I sent to him. Should be deleting it all away soon. I just realised that she told her my sis that I scolded her? Since when? Dotx...
Yep, I admit I don't believe that she sprained her ankle as I really do not know when is she gonna speaks the truth and when she's going to lie to me. And the worse thing that makes me to blog was that, she sprained her ankle on Thursday night. And I did sms her that I'll be showering there right after gym on Friday 1am+. I believe she did saw my sms at 6am when she wakes up for school yah? But she didn't replied till I sent her another sms informing her I'll be late as I'm having lunch with my kakis as they're 'celebratin' her birthday for her. Then she replied that she sprained her... Gosh... who's fault is this? I'm not blaming her nor myself. Is just another misunderstanding... sigh...
Disappointed
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:22
Last nite 've been to chinablack wif Kel n gang (Arnold, Derrick, Alicia, Yan Bin & frenz gangs). Oo is my first tym been to der... pretty enjoyable in the beginnin and songs played seems longer and longer, starts to get bored. Left @ 3am to the 24hours mac and chit chatted till 6.05am. I met up with Angel and she had a lil' more of martell so kinda high. Hopefully she's feeling better now, kinda worried sick 'bout her. Oh yah... shall go to Mdm Wong's to look up fer her. After which, hailed a cabby and we're all back home.
Alicia n Arnold were two great dancers
Sometimes it just seems to be so sickening. I thought was mummy calling me extactly on the dot of mid-night. But it was him... darn it. If this is what you were thinking let me tell you this--> "I've grown up, I know what's right and what's wrong to do. Even if heavy drink that make my mind unconsciously, and carelessness or implusiveness took over and lead me in delicate condition, I should not be regret and remorse but instead I shall bear all responsibilities myself. If this gonna brought to you disgraces, you can always at any time declare me as your non biological daughter..."
`e impudent child desperately needs all e freedom_
I guess I've forgotten what's does the status "Dad" used to mean. He's living pretty good right now, not paying out much for all e utilities since mummy and two brothers are all helping out. What more is he going to ask? He questioned me: "Did u've the intention to drive me to grave" last night through the call. I just didn't know why this question popped up in his mind that I was left speechless and stunned.
All along these years, you've been prejudiced towards me but did I complaint? I've been neglected... did you know that?
I don't wanna lie, I told lies, but why? I don't wanna lie, I'm tempted to smoke, but why? I've lost my dignity, but why? I'm clueless...
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:50
10 March 2006
By right I shouldn't be here blogging. My plan ruined again. She smsed me that she sprained her ankle when I already in school with the gigantic bag. Nevermind, forget it. I've a thought of going along since everything's in my bag, but I kinda not feeling well since morning. And again, I think I should be independent, haha... if I'm still semi-independent, then I shall go for jog every nights if really have the heart and determination to lose weights. =) Hmm, not gaining any more bbut maintained. I think is darn horrible if it still maintain when I exercised for at least an hour each time. Hmm, perhaps... I've been indulged in ice cream, ooo... that's fattening! Should watch out my diet. Anyway... I planned not to have my lunch on xxx day and not to have my dinner on xxx day. So today, not gonna have my dinner since I already ate in school with my kakis.
Since the day we been to www, myheadache till now had not yet recovered. Oh btw, I had a terrible nightmare, think of it rather scary... so not gonna blog =)
Out of the blue, I detest my piercing so much... the 3rd piercing on the right has already been years yet it's still bleeding and making my right ear so red, so hot... damn it, worse than the 5th n 6th...
Weather pretty warm nowadays... is march yah? Hais... burning...
Girls, I just miss those time when we're in the pool... haha... too bad not many new how to swim yah? Hurhur...
I hope I'll luv myself more
16:18
09 March 2006
`Photo Blog_
Wild Wild Wet
Dressed up for dinner @ WWW KFC
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:40
If only, I thought, I knew it" All these words came out when regret and remorse feeling struggle inside us. We never really think carefully until we're wrong. Implusive, a moment of desperatness may or may not tarnish our lifes.
`Sometimes it's good not to go to school_
No ones can predict uh? Went for IAC for half an hour and we went for the anger management talk. I learnt with the 3Is Intelligent, Identity and I, myself management we can control our emotion rather than letting it controlling over us. Actually I knew that long ago, but I've totally forgotten it until coach Luke given this talk. A rather fun and enjoyable talk, no regret =) Yep, I'm back home, not gonna waste 2hours in school just to wait for the taxation revision class.
`Update 'bout WWW_
Useless guys, may heaven punish you guys with no teeth, see if you still there to smile like this =E... idiotics! Luckily there's this life guard there to help.
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:26
08 March 2006
`Feeling sick, simply useless, simply weak_
Girls, actually since last night, I've not been feeling well lers. But I just don't wanna be wet blanket, that's why I went, but still... sigh... i'm sorries...
Been with girls to wild2 wet, 've lots of fun. Argh, think I'm the one who spoilt the atmosphere? Darn it, first was headache starts to feel a lil' giddy, throw out after shower and back home. Asked mom to get to congee for dinner ate a lil all throw out le... sianz. I think I need some day time sports activities. No more, indoor gym, night jog and slacking at home le.
Went to tsunami there to play and yes nearly get drown, i think the wave is too strong and so my darlings are all struggling, think she drank lots of water in the pool, hopefully she's fine. Poor hau's still 've to go work after that. Hais...
Took some pix... will upload once ready... haha... see the FAT ME...
That girl asked me to tell him that I'm not feeling well, doubt you'll give a damn. More over, I think you're still sleeping since you've been out for the night. It reminds me when I was having gastric pain, you knew and you asked: "This time need me to take care of you?" hah...
Tired, gonna rest.
`Forced to blog_
Yes my attitude sucks, always blaming on me. I didn't want to blog about what happened last night but you forced me to.
Just kidding with you yet you scolded me attitude forget it, communication breakdown with all the dumbs at home. There isn't any study table for me at home, can't I just sit right infront of the com to do my homework? Say I selfish of occupying the space, then you? Came back home with your stink body sleeping on the com chair leaving the com switched on. What I've said? I've said nothing! I stood up and chat with my friend for an hour plus, did you know that idiot? I doubt you want to talk to me this evening, but you left with no choice but to ask me how to check all your junk mails. And asked me to take newspaper for you right beside the com, can't you go to the storerm and take? I didn't do that purposely, is all a misunderstanding. You always misunderstood me. Forget it, it dropped and I was to be blame? There's this great disappointment in me, did you know? What you've commented dad earlier on? Yes, readers all think that I'm such an idiot to scold you dumb, but they just didn't know how idiotic u're to curse dad to die early, more worse, are you aware that you're saying that to mom? Can't you show some respect to her? Don't think that you're just forkingout 150bucks for the utilities bill just for this month and you're the breadwinner K? You said you're not happy in living in this home, then by all means to leave this home and go to all your zhu peng gou you. I'm sure they gonna let you stay... *wishful thoughts. But still all the best to you. Don't be a stray pet on the street can le. N are you aware that you're equally a failure as dad? Both are brainless to invest your money on glambling... stupid! Idiot, you've got no right to say dad when you owes him 1k just to clear up your debts lah. Just beat me up if you wish... I don't wish to stay at this FUCKING HOME at all... who's willing to adopt me? Fuck off... ~
Reader pls mind my languages... thanks
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:32
07 March 2006
`Quick update_
I know I'm doom, is 2:06AM right now. Should be turning soon as I'm meeting lil' ved for school tomorrow. Hopefully I won't drag her to late punishment. Another wasted Monday evening, just planned my entire week of schedule, is fully packed. I reserved Saturday for friends, meeting up my beloved juniors up for some cello playings. Sound great? Of course... and in the evening gonna have my dinner with Kelly @ 8PM @ PM, hopefully you're able to make it. And girl, I'd have to leave as early as 10.30PM. Hope I won't be a wet blanket yah? And Sunday I'm going gym, you see if you're free and interested in joining me. =D sms me again. Nighty
`Updating @ 4PM
Turn in only this morning 3am yet my morning call was at 5am. Despite of 2hours of sleep, I'm still energetic =) Gastric kinda pain, but I doubt I ate anything wrong.. Tomorrow going out with gurls to wild2 wet, hyped up cuz I can't wait to see how she [ling mei] dressed up in bikini and shouting "deng wo, deng wo' with her long straight nice hair. =p Too bad, Hau's working in the evening otherwise, we'd have our dinner together like what I've planned out. Hais... nevermind. Think you fallen asleep after replied back the first sms, haha... thanks. Surprised that you [YY] called too... thankss. That lil' ved was late arh, madness!
`Useless_
I jux 've to blog how useless I'm. I've having gastric pain again. But still I went for a longer route jog with my mp3. I didn't know was it my determination of not stopping though really tempted to, or was it the accompaniment of the mp. Just wonder, anyway, was irritating though. Gonna try the same track w/o mp on thursday.
Back home went for a shower jux finish washing my clothes. Darn it don't even 've time to pack my bag for tomorrow outing with girls. Think I'm mood swinging again. In two mind's, but most probably will be going don't wanna be wet blanket and spoil mood...
I'm tired, I thought I'd meet 'em late in the afternoon, but sigh... forget it.
Realised my attitude sucks up easily nowadays when I'm at home. Perhaps, too hyper in school to craps with all kakis le, back home... mood swings...
Yawn2... gonna sleep... stupid hair still wet...
Argh... I'm nobody to control you, sigh...
Best mood to be indulged with drinks...
I hope I'll luv myself more
02:05
06 March 2006
`Nothing much_
Is the second post for the day, shall be a short and sweet one. As usu, I'm late for school. I feel like the exam is just right tomorrow, seeing the one whole stack of IAC revision paper, I nearly fainted.
Still wondering which PMK singlet to buy, I mean the design print. Argh... headache... saw about 2/3 designs that I liked a lot. Heh heh...
Nothing much, had my dinner, gonna shower and do my revision. =)
Gurl, I hope he's fine...
llAlmost fainted when talking to dad's just now, wasted my precious salivall
`Jokes_
Out of the blue second kor came to massage my back for me. And after 3mins, he said... okay I don't own you any more money. He claimed that he has given me a 30% discount. And here he goes his craps.
That time I helped [?] to massage and I charged her 150bucks cuz too much meat and the hand was being wetted up by her body oil. Luckily he wore the gloves...
And he said he once charged [SK] for $50 for massaging her back, cuz he accidentally broke one of her back bone, it was an accident.
Not funny? Cuz you don't catch the ball... lol...
I hope I'll luv myself more
18:06
Oh is 1am, tired. *Yawn...
Thought I've something to blog about, but I just forgotten. Oh well, late in the night, I just miss working life those time when I consider myself lil' rich lady. Just going ahead to shop non-stop yet know how to save a lot. Unlike now, no more income yet spend lots! Sigh... I just can't wait till apr for my holiday... argh...
I wanna start off with licence if this holiday pay's gonna be high... =)
Oh yah... now I recalled wad I wanna say over here. I don't wanna say I've fully gotten over him. But at least, there's something that tells me that it's not worth my time. Should learn to be independent once more and yah... everything I should just be on my own. Lalala... I'm in pretty good mood... think should catch some rest, otherwise, I'll be moody later=) The Bottom Line: Read the small print today and you'll save yourself some money -- and headaches. In Detail: These are surprising times when even someone like you, who's in close-to-complete control of their intimate emotions, can be caught off guard. You, of course, won't believe that. You're confident of your position as master or mistress of all you survey. The good news is that if you can do what you already do best -- that is, sit tight and refuse to be manipulated -- you can hold onto that title, and add a couple more to your resume.
`Update @ 1:40AM
Late in the night, listening to some classical music, yep bach suite no 1, preludge is always I go for first. After listening to yo yo ma playings, I just realised how much I misses playing the bach suite in the dark room, closing eyes, I was so engrossed into the playing... hais... it was a mistake to give up
I think mom was missing my playing too... hais... jux feel like crying now
[So lost]
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:57
05 March 2006
DARN IT... a long entry is gone by a "BACK SPACE" Idiot...
Not gonna blog... @$^*&%#!
The Bottom Line:
Be careful with routine stuff today -- an unusual minor detail might trip you up.
The Bottom Line:
Be careful with routine stuff today -- an unusual minor detail might trip you up.
In Detail:
You've been thinking about letting a certain person know just how much you care -- in fact, you've been thinking about doing that for some time now. You're right on the verge of having a 'state of the relationship' meeting to tell them how you feel. Well, what's the holdup? You know they feel the same and you know they'll be delighted to hear it. You've even got the perfect heavenly envoy on duty, right now: The lovely lady Venus is on your side. What could be better?
I just can't help stop blogging. So here I'm...
Rather pissed off with mom, cuz she washed my school bag without my permission. I knew is darn dirty but I know how to wash it myself, so please don't touch my thing next time round. The most worse thing is... she lost my PMK 10 bucks ang bao, humph!!! So mad... damn mad argh!!! And I had my dinner together with her and jie family, afterwhich my jie fu purposely drove us to bugis village as I wanted to see bag. And mom commented the bag that I'm eyeing for is "useless" I was so damn pissed off and walked out of the shop. Think jie knew I was angry and so she went back to the shop and get it for me. Thanks jie... smuackies... I know that bag isn't nice but I just like it can?
The purpose of this bag is not for school purpose. I just wanna to have a bag to tag along with me when I go shopping. Everything 'd just throw it inside... and... perhaps... gym? Yep... that's the purpose... and maybe going for chatlet too... some clothes just 'd be nicely packed in it bahs. Hais... she just don't see the pt.. forget it as jie has already bought it for me... nehx!
Tomorrow Ms Tan is on course so yah... can slp for another hour more. Her theoretical homework is messily done! Gonna redo...
Was damn mad when the whole day... just someone cheered me up. Haha... those people whom I chatted with in msn today... darn happy now... haha...
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:45
`Nothing much, just happy_
Last night went to PM to take my multi columns pads from Gina and we saw Shi Bing =) He rather stunned look, rather funny.
After which, I was alone at PM Mac thinking of something. Feeling much more better actually and yes you called me telling me you was on your way back home. Hahax, say wanna call me when you reached home where's the call guy? =D
Called lil' ved out and kelly. Didn't expect ved to come out at that hour, pretty late already. Hm, sigh... she still a kid and yep being scolded by her dad as she was crazily chasing idol. And because of that, she lied again and again. I went up to their house, just to protect my lil' ved. But still I failed. Sigh... but at least, I think she feels better bah. Hmm, hopefully she learns her lesson. =)
Today I think I've been my sis maid. Looking after her lil' daughter, scolded her a lil' who ask her disturbing me when I was packing up the entire house. Mopping and cleaning, pretty tiring. Hais... but just couldn't stand the mess at all. Contended...
Then went to GP to buy lunch for lil' ved and got myself a waffle with kaya. Hmm, yep... that's my lunch. =)
Not to forget, today's my online pal birthday. Guy [Damian] Happy Birthday to you... *winks. You blew the candles right? Haas...
Hmm... jie where'r you? I wanna go gai gai with you. Hmm... you own me a bag... this time round gonna ask you pay for everything! Cuz... I did the housework for you nehx...!!! Pay for the 30 over bucks yah? Heh heh... bleahx...
Who given my number out to someone whom I don't know? Idiotic... didn't ask me for permission. Humph!
I hope I'll luv myself more
18:37
04 March 2006
Reposted this morning entry in another blog. Hmm accompanied lil' ved for her lunch and just got back home from fetching lil' niece. Everything also ask me to carry for her, showing me that innocent look and said: "Ah yi, carry for me... I no strength". Argh... buying her yam yam biscuit for her also ask me to carry for her. Jialat lah this lil' niece... spoilt kiddo.
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:43
03 March 2006
`Sometimes I just wonder, what friends are for_
I just couldn't imagine I've slacked the whole day, yes... the day. Slept this morning, wake up, com and sleep, shower and com again. How wasted...
By right as planned out I should be going to gym this evening. But sigh I thought she really ended school at 7pm but I received a call from her asking me to lie to her dad that she's with me. I just don't see the needs in lying if she wanted to go out with her friends till late home. Both parties are at fault, her dad just bother to work from morning till mid-night yet wanna her to be at home as early as possible. As for her I could tell that's pretty bored. Isn't it? So why bother to control her so strictly till she has to lie everytime?
"Friends" all said set set to go gym but there isn't any reply from 'em last night. Well that doesn't matters me much actually though I really wish to be informed if they're not keen in going or they're not free to go with me.
Stayed up late night till 4am to help friend out with project. Yep, she did mention thanks but I just could 't sense she's touched at all. Oh well, perhaps... I didn't do a great job for her bahs. [Sigh] It just seems that none appreciate my effort...
Am I a friend to depend and rely on to all my friends? But when I just need 'em to accompany me for a jog, to gym is that really asking for too much? I constantly reminding myself that we don't share the same interest. Perhaps... [Sigh] I... I just feel that... friends... weren't there real by myside when i desperately really needed them to be.
Hush hush... I shall not cry over a small lil' matter. But I just couldn't deceive myself by showing a fake smile over here right?
Friends are always so far away from me. When will I find a best, close friend whom I can really depend and rely on him/her each time when I'm down? I thought I've found this special one but was she the right one? I don't know.
`Family_
Everyone of us at home has been selfish that includes me. But why? Afterall aren't we a big family? I just miss those time when I'm a lil' kiddo when dad would just bring us for a swim and zoo during weekends. Now we've all grown and I don't expect that we're gonna gather every evening to have our dinner together but at least, we'd just communicate or at least a greeting? But we just find it so hard to say it out.
Just woke up from nap, and elder brother was asking if I'd let him use the bathroom first. I admit it took me pretty a long time to shower but why can't you give in to me and use the kitchen bathroom? Forget, I didn't said anything but just an attitude of KK... and walked to the kitchen bathroom.
I don't sense any family love at all...
`Self reflection_
Right after typing the above, I had realised that I'm someone who has a real high expectation in everything I do. Be it in academic, work, family, friends and everything I do, I just wanna to get it done as closely to perfection but why am I expecting so much? I just couldn't understand.[Sigh]
`Praising_
`Friends_
Afterall not too bad, friends whom I rarely get along with always touched me by words that they had said. Just feel thanksful to kakis Jing. She's just someone whom I failed to help each time, all I'd do for her is only lil' thing. Yet she always wetted up my eyes with her words true from her heart.
Kakis YY, she's someone who helps when she's in a good mood? When she's equally down with you, don't wish you could get an advice from her. And don't think that your advices work for her too. Nothing just get into her mind.
Agnes, we're so far apart now. I believe when either one of us are down, we'd be online here for one another through mail? Yep... just thanks a trillion.
Jo, sometimes I just think that you're so kiddish but not too bad, sometimes you'd really give me some mature advices than anyone else.
`Famiy_
I think I couldn't live without mom, that's for sure. She has been spoon feeding and pampers me too much. But I just don't sense the love from her. But she has given me enough of everything. I just hope that I'd feel comfortable sharing my problems with her. Oh well, think I can forget it. Is tough for me to share with friends, so I guess it gonna be even tougher for me to share with her.
Sister... always there for me. Though our r'ship is so complicated. Sister love forever...
`Lecturer
I should really be thanksful to Mr Hari whom helped me to pull up 30% of my attendance if not I doubt I'd make it for the coming exam. I'm really thanksful. At the same time, I'm equally sorries for all the conflicts beginning of the school terms. Bad mouthing about you too... oh well... [Blush]. I'm sorries.
Today's the last day Mr Cheo is teaching us for this semester. Haa... I was thinking of writing you a card but I just overslept.... idiot me.
Here's the message for you:
Thank you for drilling us with endlessly progress test. Otherwise, we wouldn't know how badly we're doing. We apologies for complaining your tedious way of teaching that really kills majority of us. We're sorries as we finally understood why. You're just trying your very best and trying all means to let us have a better understanding, your effort we saw and we appreciated, we're thanksful to you. A thousand of thanks.
Lastly, thanks for seeing me as an adult and proud of my maturity. I wanna let you know I', proud to have a caring and understanding lecturer like you too.
All the best to you for your future endeavour!
UQ0504F gonna miss your tedious way of teaching.
Feeling much more better after blogging out everything. Just get to know that Mr Cheo is gonna teach us for the next semester... advance accounting? Guess so...
Was caught skippping dinner last few evenings. Darn it... not gonna eat... gonna mug.
`Quick edit_
It seems like I always wanted to blog about my burnt lip as I smoked yah? Haa... but I had forgotten about it. Hmm, so it has been a week since I last smoked, my lip had yet recovered. And is really painful when I drank some hot drinks.
It also seems like I couldn't escape this time round. Second kor 'new I didn't want to eat so he asked me to get my share for him. But I was simply lazy... mom saw him taking my dinner and so she given me her's. Shit...
Anyone haven't had your dinner, come over my house to help me eat...argh... an hour of blog
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:24
`Finally I'm done_
Is 3:55AM in the morning, finally I finish helping my friend out with her project. =) Hopefully she's contended.
Is 3:55AM in the morning, finally I finish helping my friend out with her project. =) Hopefully she's contended.
`My Horoscope_
The bottom line: "Remember that you can never truly get own anything, so do not get too attached"
In details: "You're the kind of person who insists on depth, intensity and passion in all your encounters, so anyone who wastes your time with meaningless chatter won't garner a second conversation. At the moment, however, you'll amaze even yourself at how much you'll enjoy chatting with someone you thought you had no interest in -- on just about any topic."
`Hurts_
Is the sun specially sunny this afternoon? Tears just rolled down my cheeks, eyes rather hurt. Rather giddy, maybe because didn't take dinner last night. Hmm, will be fine... I guess
I was being attracted by one swimsuit by sheer romance pretty nice. But I doubt it looks good in me cuz I've no figure. Haa... qin said wanna buy me a bikini on my birthday, haa... I guess not only guys faint but girls too. Faint because me the fatso wearning bikini. Wahaha... funny sey. Kkx... now I wanna buy a bag... Kai zi was wanting to sell me the bag that she bought at bugis that day. She said it doesn't goes with her uniform. Haa... but I actually wanna get the bag that she carried out that day for a long time le nehx. Haa... but still I'll consider bah... since I liked both bags. But gonna get one only. Heex...
Now then I knew today is the releasing of admission into poly. Few friend didn't receive any news, that's pretty sad. Hopefully they'd make 2nd application, all the best to them.
I hope I'll luv myself more
03:52
02 March 2006
`I don't wanna hide my feeling, just like you_
Late in the night, listening to "Because I'm a Girl" tears just dropped. Everynight I'd just think back how you held me in your arms, how my fingers gap being filled up by yours. The temperature that keeps me warm and how you showered me with love. Perhaps, these few days I'm getting busier and hardly I'd be online for long. I just wish that you've been doing fine and I hope you've been here as I wanted to let you know how terrible I misses you each night when I'm on bed, thinking of you before I'd get to sleep. Every morning, its just reflected me the smile of yours before I'd get out of bed and prepare for school.
*Readers if you're offended, I'm sorry and I've nothing to say... as this is my own bloggy yah?
I hope I'll luv myself more
07:21
01 March 2006
I just couldn't imagine I'm going for Wednesday class, in addition, just a 2hrs lesson. Pretty hardworking arh? Taking a journey of 3hours to and from school.
How time realli flies, 59days of 2006 has gone... sigh. As planned, tonight I shall go for a jog. =)
`Back home_
've been out the whole day that's why no update. =P Went to F.E wif kakis before meeting gurls up. Just to be frank, rather pissed off by em. Haa, I sort of said out everything even to 'em. And guess just some misunderstandings yah? Whatever it's... I just think that we've been good friends for 7years+ there's nothing good to hide when we don't feel good about one another lor. So just don't get offended k? I know my attitude simply sucks, but just bear with me. Since you girls has been giving in to me all along these years. Thanks!
I just feel duper good hanging out with kakis or friends. At least can keep me away from thinking unnecessary things. I just hope that I'd do well for this coming exam and work hard for the coming holiday, at least save some money for poly fees yah? Mr Hari just 've the confident in me, and I've it too as long as I go and attend all lessons. My aim... I don't wanna just stop at ITE
Aiming for at least 2As and 1B... the only B that I can afford is for my taxation yah? But anyway, starting from tomorrow onwards, we're doing all revision paper le. So hopefully 3As? Haa... oh dear, I shall not be that greedy... 2As 1B and I'm contended.
Anyway, I got an expensive yet fattening dinner. I ordered a pure cheesecake and the ultimate @ coffeebean and I'm darn duper full! Gosh... luckily mom didn't force me to eat dinner.
Think is long enough of craps. Erm... going off to do homework for IAC... before I forgotten all.
Tata... and nighty to all readers...
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:22
